Gun Shots in the Woods

  The trigger my mother squeezed on a .45 Colt rifle in the woods of upstate New York that summer night will be an image captured and cemented in my mind for a lifetime.   I was an overweight, troubled, 14-year-old, with a great deal of anger. My stepfather, Frank, reluctantly accepted that I came… Continue reading Gun Shots in the Woods

Purpose

What is purpose? Why I need a purpose? Will I find my purpose?     purpose noun a person’s sense of resolve or determination. “there was a new sense of purpose in her step as she set off” synonyms: determination, resoluteness, resolution, resolve, firmness (of purpose), steadfastness, backbone, drive, push, thrust, enthusiasm, ambition, initia-tive, enterprise, motivation, single-mindedness, commitment, conviction, dedication Whenever I think of purpose, I am reminded of Steve Martin who plays… Continue reading Purpose

The Most Frightening Experience of My Life

Our memory is a powerful tool that assists in our pursuit of happiness; preventing accidents, mistakes and reminding us daily, that we are human. Memory can also be a rehashing of the most horrendous experience of our lives, relentlessly replayed, over and over again. It was 1:15 a.m. and I was standing at a bus… Continue reading The Most Frightening Experience of My Life

Managing Physical and Emotional Pain

A Layman’s Perspective     I was about 85 percent finished writing my blog this week and I began questioning why anyone would want to read what I had to say about coping with pain. Fortunately, it didn’t take long for me to remind myself that I wasn’t writing my blog for anyone else. That… Continue reading Managing Physical and Emotional Pain

I Was Taught to Keep it All Inside

I’ve been on an honesty kick for a long time and it doesn’t always work for me.     You hear a lot about gay people “coming out” these days. There are many incredible stories; each unique and compelling. Mine is no different — act straight, marry, keep it from the boss, tell your sister… Continue reading I Was Taught to Keep it All Inside