Growing Up With Broadway

Too shy to be on stage, but happy to watch and dream. ​​”I got a feeling there’s a miracle due gonna come true, coming to me. Could it be? Yes it could. Something’s coming. Something good, if I can wait.” – West Side Story I was watching an interview with Dame Judi Dench, an actor… Continue reading Growing Up With Broadway

My Head Still Hurts

  This is my older sister Kat (short for Kathy, which she doesn’t like to be called). I love writing or calling her ‘my older sister.’ No matter how old we get, Kat will be my older sister. I know when she reads this she’ll say, “You fucker.” I’m going to tell you a story… Continue reading My Head Still Hurts

Vanity at Any Age

Before I even type the first word I realize that if I’m going to write about vanity, I’ll have to reveal thoughts I usually reserve for my journal and trusted friends. I will try my best not to rant or overshare. “The surest cure for vanity is loneliness.” Tom Wolfe e   I’m about 20… Continue reading Vanity at Any Age

Doing the Right Thing

  I’m not sure when it was that I started feeling the pressure of doing the right thing. I do know two things: I spend way too much time thinking about this. The right thing for me or for others; I think about both. When I do the so called “right thing,” I sometimes spend… Continue reading Doing the Right Thing

Letting Go Can Be Difficult

It’s been a difficult week of reflection. I imagine some might say that every week in one’s life is difficult; however, I would argue that there are times in one’s life when thoughts are more negative, more self-critical, and harder to sort out. Sometimes the yin & the yang seem out of balance and it… Continue reading Letting Go Can Be Difficult

How My Childhood Experiences Shaped Who I am

  Home Life My earliest memories are of physical and emotional abuse, alcohol abuse, racial tension, divisive and foul language, death, family turmoil, drug abuse, illness, and poverty; all at extremely damaging proportions. Conversely, I witnessed love, sexual freedom, a struggle to rise above socio-economic barriers, an acceptance of alternative sexual and gender orientation, and… Continue reading How My Childhood Experiences Shaped Who I am

Finding the Right Balance/When Loneliness Strikes/An Act of Kindness — Reblog

  Hard to imagine doing anything these days without feeling some guilt. An overwhelming number of articles, television shows, religious authorities, relatives and so on, telling us what’s good for us; who knows what’s best anymore. Truth be known, most of us know what’s good for us. We don’t need a know-it-all “expert” to share… Continue reading Finding the Right Balance/When Loneliness Strikes/An Act of Kindness — Reblog

Living With a Lie

“There are only two things. Truth and lies. Truth is indivisible, hence it cannot recognize itself; anyone who wants to recognize it has to be a lie.” Franz Kafka My mother’s lies taught me two things:  First and most harmful, it was acceptable to lie, and second, secrets are impossible to keep. I had a… Continue reading Living With a Lie

A Note to Today’s Youth

To those out on their own paths, setting little fires. — Celeste Ng       I have to state right up front, I am not bitter nor angry. I like young people — don’t judge, I mean in a healthy way. Lots of 60 year olds are jaded and set in their ways, so… Continue reading A Note to Today’s Youth

From Troubled Boy to Troubled Man

I am not writing this blog so that you will feel sorry for me. In fact, I am only able to write about this chapter of my life as a result of having learned lessons and having done the hard work of self-reflection; by all accounts an on-going process. One big lesson:  do not dwell… Continue reading From Troubled Boy to Troubled Man