Growing Up With Broadway

Too shy to be on stage, but happy to watch and dream. ​​”I got a feeling there’s a miracle due gonna come true, coming to me. Could it be? Yes it could. Something’s coming. Something good, if I can wait.” – West Side Story I was watching an interview with Dame Judi Dench, an actor… Continue reading Growing Up With Broadway

Vanity at Any Age

Before I even type the first word I realize that if I’m going to write about vanity, I’ll have to reveal thoughts I usually reserve for my journal and trusted friends. I will try my best not to rant or overshare. “The surest cure for vanity is loneliness.” Tom Wolfe e   I’m about 20… Continue reading Vanity at Any Age

Doing the Right Thing

  I’m not sure when it was that I started feeling the pressure of doing the right thing. I do know two things: I spend way too much time thinking about this. The right thing for me or for others; I think about both. When I do the so called “right thing,” I sometimes spend… Continue reading Doing the Right Thing

How My Childhood Experiences Shaped Who I am

  Home Life My earliest memories are of physical and emotional abuse, alcohol abuse, racial tension, divisive and foul language, death, family turmoil, drug abuse, illness, and poverty; all at extremely damaging proportions. Conversely, I witnessed love, sexual freedom, a struggle to rise above socio-economic barriers, an acceptance of alternative sexual and gender orientation, and… Continue reading How My Childhood Experiences Shaped Who I am

From Troubled Boy to Troubled Man

I am not writing this blog so that you will feel sorry for me. In fact, I am only able to write about this chapter of my life as a result of having learned lessons and having done the hard work of self-reflection; by all accounts an on-going process. One big lesson:  do not dwell… Continue reading From Troubled Boy to Troubled Man

Perspective

I like to think that I’m a big picture kinda guy, except that I’m not. I get pretty bogged down in minutia. Big picture would mean that I’d be considering how I fit into the scheme of things and how small I am compared to the universe. It’s time for me to start thinking differently.… Continue reading Perspective

The Afternoon I Went to Bed Certain I Would Not Wake Up

Many have shared their personal drug experiences, however, mine is particular to me. This piece is not 100% inclusive. The two I haven chosen to share are my first and my worst experiences. My hope is that my readers will recognize and heed the dangers of certain types of drug use. You may have to… Continue reading The Afternoon I Went to Bed Certain I Would Not Wake Up

Gun Shots in the Woods

  The trigger my mother squeezed on a .45 Colt rifle in the woods of upstate New York that summer night will be an image captured and cemented in my mind for a lifetime.   I was an overweight, troubled, 14-year-old, with a great deal of anger. My stepfather, Frank, reluctantly accepted that I came… Continue reading Gun Shots in the Woods

The Most Frightening Experience of My Life

Our memory is a powerful tool that assists in our pursuit of happiness; preventing accidents, mistakes and reminding us daily, that we are human. Memory can also be a rehashing of the most horrendous experience of our lives, relentlessly replayed, over and over again. It was 1:15 a.m. and I was standing at a bus… Continue reading The Most Frightening Experience of My Life