Living With Lies

How It Informs Your Life (repost with revisions) “There are only two things. Truth and lies. Truth is indivisible, hence it cannot recognize itself; anyone who wants to recognize it has to be a lie.” Franz Kafka My mother’s lies taught me two things:  First, and most harmful, it was acceptable to lie, and second,… Continue reading Living With Lies

Moody? Me?

Raise your hand if you’re subject to mood swings. There are two big problems with retirement: 1) Way too much time to think, and 2) Nobody wants to listen to your problems. So many of today’s issues have to do with the emotional rollercoaster that seems to be a ride that just doesn’t end. Whether… Continue reading Moody? Me?

Revisiting Happiness

It ain’t rocket science. Today Thanksgiving has and will always be my favorite holiday. Why you ask? It’s all about the food, being with people you choose to be with (can’t speak for everyone here), and there are no presents involved. I’m attending a Thanksgiving dinner today with all of the trimmings . . .… Continue reading Revisiting Happiness

A New Twist On An Old Theme: Mindfulness

Beware That Voice Inside Your Head I recently did some damage to the top of my head; as usual, I wasn’t paying attention. It made me think it was time to revisit some thoughts concerning the distractions of the mind. Here’s how the conversation in my head might go on any given day: 5:15 a.m.: … Continue reading A New Twist On An Old Theme: Mindfulness

Permission to Forgive Updated

It’s so easy to forget you’re human. I need to revisit this topic for my own sanity. If you’re anything like me — and God help you if you are, you’re fairly hard on yourself. You can spend a lot of money trying to figure out why you’re like this, or you can just accept… Continue reading Permission to Forgive Updated

Fighting Your Own Impulses

Or Imposing Self-harm This is a difficult topic for me. I am strong and for the most part able to resist many of my impulses, but I have been fighting urges to act on the negative ones all of my life. Some impulses are positive and should not be ignored. For example when you see… Continue reading Fighting Your Own Impulses

Smile Blog Revisited

Coping With Lockdown This blog is more for me than for you. I recently learned that the Portuguese government will extend lockdown until early April. On top of that, my vaccine is months away and the two jabs could get in the way of travel. It’s been a difficult year, however, I have come to… Continue reading Smile Blog Revisited

You Can Go Now

I’m not proud of it, but it had to be done. I held my mother’s icy cold hand and I whispered, “You can go now mom.” “Why don’t you feel good about this? Wasn’t it the kindest thing to do?” If my intention was to have my mother pass in order to end her suffering,… Continue reading You Can Go Now

Infidelity Is Not For A Child’s Eyes

Adults can be terribly stupid, reckless, and naive; that’s fine as long as they’re not hurting anyone but themselves. Unfortunately, supposed grown ups sneak around deceiving one another without giving much thought to what children see and hear. The damage that is done, cannot be undone. My Story Our bedrooms were across the hall from… Continue reading Infidelity Is Not For A Child’s Eyes

Goodbye Brother

Brotherly Love You have to have a brother to truly understand the bond between brothers. My brother Anthony was a royal pain in the ass. He was confused, angry, reckless, often the victim, funny, loving, and he was my brother. Although not diagnosed as such, we are fairly certain he was bipolar and clinically depressed.… Continue reading Goodbye Brother