Letter to My 80 Year Old Self

Hoping you’ll be around to read it. Dear Chris, I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. 2040 is not so far away and no doubt, the world will have changed; just wondering how much. The big questions seem silly to ask, but curiosity has gotten the better of me. What’s the weather like? How… Continue reading Letter to My 80 Year Old Self

Who’s in Your Head?

Let’s face it, we all have demons. Mine always choose the worst time to enter my consciousness: sometime around 2:00 to 4:00 a.m. Between having to get up to pee numerous times and these visitors, I get out of bed exhausted. These are people that were either a part of my past or live among… Continue reading Who’s in Your Head?

If it Were My Last 24 Hours on Earth

“No one here gets out alive.” — Jim Morrison   Not to worry, not checking out anytime soon, just reminding myself how fragile life can be. The last thing I want to do is hurt anyone; therefore, I think it’s best for me to respond in the abstract and not name names. What if you… Continue reading If it Were My Last 24 Hours on Earth

Vanity at Any Age

Before I even type the first word I realize that if I’m going to write about vanity, I’ll have to reveal thoughts I usually reserve for my journal and trusted friends. I will try my best not to rant or overshare. “The surest cure for vanity is loneliness.” Tom Wolfe e   I’m about 20… Continue reading Vanity at Any Age

Doing the Right Thing

  I’m not sure when it was that I started feeling the pressure of doing the right thing. I do know two things: I spend way too much time thinking about this. The right thing for me or for others; I think about both. When I do the so called “right thing,” I sometimes spend… Continue reading Doing the Right Thing

Letting Go Can Be Difficult

It’s been a difficult week of reflection. I imagine some might say that every week in one’s life is difficult; however, I would argue that there are times in one’s life when thoughts are more negative, more self-critical, and harder to sort out. Sometimes the yin & the yang seem out of balance and it… Continue reading Letting Go Can Be Difficult

How My Childhood Experiences Shaped Who I am

  Home Life My earliest memories are of physical and emotional abuse, alcohol abuse, racial tension, divisive and foul language, death, family turmoil, drug abuse, illness, and poverty; all at extremely damaging proportions. Conversely, I witnessed love, sexual freedom, a struggle to rise above socio-economic barriers, an acceptance of alternative sexual and gender orientation, and… Continue reading How My Childhood Experiences Shaped Who I am

Finding the Right Balance/When Loneliness Strikes/An Act of Kindness — Reblog

  Hard to imagine doing anything these days without feeling some guilt. An overwhelming number of articles, television shows, religious authorities, relatives and so on, telling us what’s good for us; who knows what’s best anymore. Truth be known, most of us know what’s good for us. We don’t need a know-it-all “expert” to share… Continue reading Finding the Right Balance/When Loneliness Strikes/An Act of Kindness — Reblog

The Power of Your Smile

“Always wear a smile because you never know who is watching.” Gracie Gold     I want to smile more. I do. One would think that this would be an easy goal, but trust me, if you’re not inclined to smile, deciding to do so, just like that, is a difficult objective. I was born… Continue reading The Power of Your Smile

Living With a Lie

“There are only two things. Truth and lies. Truth is indivisible, hence it cannot recognize itself; anyone who wants to recognize it has to be a lie.” Franz Kafka My mother’s lies taught me two things:  First and most harmful, it was acceptable to lie, and second, secrets are impossible to keep. I had a… Continue reading Living With a Lie